Archive | September, 2013

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26 Sep

lilas_bed

We finally made the move to the toddler bed! Can you tell that Lila was super excited about her big girl bed? I think she was really proud of herself and she loves that she can go hurl herself into bed. I won’t lie, the first night was torture. I didn’t really expect things to go flawlessly but I didn’t expect them to go as roughly as they did. She has always done really great at bedtime and when 8pm rolls around she is ready to lay down. Sometimes she will even tell us she is ready for “night, night.” After a few snuggles, hugs and kisses she lays down with her books and is pretty satisfied so I didn’t think too much would be different once the toddler bed came into play.

We rearranged her room slightly and her bed is on a different wall than where her crib was. When bedtime rolled around she acted like everything was normal but the minute I tried to walk out of the room there was a major meltdown. She was crying so hard she could barely catch her breath. It made me really sad because it seemed like she was genuinely scared, not just that she didn’t want me to leave. We reassured her she was a big girl and that we were just in the other room. By the time I would sit down in the living room she would already be up and opening the door. This little routine went on from about 8-11pm. Finally by 11 we were going to bed ourselves and she had finally given up. I guess after repeatedly taking her back to her room she was too tired to fight us. I thought, “finally!” Not so fast there, thinking we were going to get by that easy. Around 3:30 I woke up to Lila standing by my bed. I took her back to her room and tucked her in and told her she had to sleep in her big girl bed. She would comply and say she understood but by the time I would get back in bed I could hear the pitter patter of her little feet coming down the hall. This went on for 2 hours. I was thrilled. At the 2 hour mark I gave in and told her she could climb in our bed but by this point she was wide awake and wasn’t even trying to sleep. After about 10 minutes of her lying there kicking me I took her back to her room. I pleaded my case once more for her to stay in bed, I really thought I had her that time…..nope. At this point I woke Josh up…how he slept through all this I have no idea. I told him I was done and it was his turn to take a stab at it. Of course he only had to put her down once and I guess by that time she was too tired to continue on. I still didn’t fall asleep for quite sometime as I lay restless waiting for the sound of her feet. I might have gotten 45 more min. of sleep and I was prepared for the next day to be painful. However, for the small amount of sleep I got I functioned rather well and never felt like I was going to crash.

Since that first night Lila has done extremely well. We have gotten in a good routine at night and now that she is in her bed I can lay down with her and read books. That is one of my favorite times of day. She is clean, snuggly and calm and we sit side by side and wind down our day together. I was really nervous about transitioning from the crib because knowing she was restricted to that little space was somehow very comforting. And, in the middle of that first night I was convinced she would be in the crib til she was 5 and we would just have to invest in a 2nd crib for Lucy. Oh the places your mind goes in the middle of the night.

I am so thankful she has taken to her bed somewhat seamlessly and just hope that it sticks.

 

Baby Girl #2

17 Sep

I haven’t written here in quite sometime. I’m disappointed because I love going back and looking at the way this helps to document life. For some reason I got a bit burnt out on writing but with lots of new changes happening in our lives I want to have a place to “remember” it by.

lucy

Back at the first of July we found out we were expecting baby #2! Very exciting and a bit overwhelming at the same time time. It wasn’t a big surprise and it was something we had definitely discussed but it is different when things go from hypothetical to real. I got really nervous and quite anxious about how I was going to handle 2 babies. I know people do it everyday and with a lot more kids but for me it was a lot. As the weeks passed I became more and more calm. I have actually now convinced myself I can do this and it’s gonna be great, positive reinforcement. All that kinda makes it sound like I wasn’t happy about the news but I truly was. All those moments of the first weeks and how hard it can be suddenly came rushing back to the front of brain and made me a bit timid. Just like anything it is going to be a change and we will have to adjust our lives just like we did when Lila arrived. Right now we have a routine and we all know what we are doing and things are for the most part flowing….on most days.

At our first dr’s appointment we found out they offered a new test. It was a DNA screening test that you could take as early as 10 weeks and find out the gender 100%. The test also screened your chromosomes to check for any signs of Down’s or Trisomy 21. It’s pretty amazing that you can find out that early these days. We didn’t get to do the test until I was 11 weeks because we were away on vacation but once we got back we had it on the schedule. They said the test usually took about 3 weeks for results so we still had to remain a bit patient. A week and half later I was sitting in the Detroit airport on the way to see my brother in Seattle when I got the call from the dr. The results were already in! However I was by myself, surrounded by strangers in the airport. For some reason I didn’t want to find out the gender at that moment by myself. However, I was anxious to know how everything was genetically. The nurse let me know that everything came back as low-risk and normal which provided me with a huge sigh of relief. I opted to call the office back for the gender results after I had spoken to Josh. I called and texted and got no reply from Josh (he was in meetings.) I was boarding the plane and had to turn my phone off and was disconnected for the next 4 hours. Once I landed in Seattle I was able to talk to Josh and we both agreed we wanted to go ahead and find out, but by that time the office was closed. Argh! We decided I would call the next morning and I would call him first thing with the news. By the time I was ready to go to sleep I was exhausted from a day of travel, sight-seeing and just all the excitement. I knew the faster I went to sleep the faster I would get the news. I dreamed about calling all night long. I had gotten 2 results it was a boy, 1 result it was a girl, and once I couldn’t find any phone that would dial out. I woke up at 6am and thought I couldn’t wait another minute. Since there is a 3 hour time difference I knew the dr’s office would be open. I nervously reached for my phone and dialed the number. Suddenly, the office voicemail picked up….I thought that can’t be right. I hung up and dialed again, this time I actually listened to the recording only to be reminded they were closed on Fridays. Big ole bummer. So I had to wait until Monday, luckily my brother was keeping me extra busy sight-seeing around the city and it kept my mind from wandering too much. Once Monday rolled around I pulled myself out of a deep sleep and phoned the dr. Once I got connected with the nurse she went over the genetics with me again and then asked if I was ready to know the gender…..”YES!” She calmly told me “It’s a girl” and then congratulated me. I was so excited. I had really felt like it was a girl all along and I could never explain why I felt that way. I was also really excited for Lila because ever since we told her she was gonna be a big sister she insisted on wanting a “seestah.” We would say, but Lila what if you have a little baby brother, “no, seestah!”

So baby Lucy will be joining our family around the beginning of March πŸ™‚ She and Lila are going to be almost exactly three years apart and I think Lila is going to be a great big sister.