Tag Archives: anxiety

Take Life One Day At A Time

16 Oct

I have always been a pretty laid back person but I have my share of worries that I let get the best of me. Right after I graduated college I had been job hunting and trying to find a direction for my life. I had gotten my degree, now what? For a little while I wasn’tΒ  motivated to really get up and find a job in my field. I was satisfied just bar-tending and waiting tables. There was nothing wrong with that but I knew I didn’t want to do that forever.

This was about the time the anxiety set in. It took over my whole body, my whole being and I had no idea what was happening. It came out of nowhere and made me feel terrified. I tried to explain to my friends and family why I was so upset but I couldn’t really put a finger on it. I know I was over-thinking everything and trying to figure out the path my life was gonna take all at one time. It got bad enough where I didn’t want to leave the house or go to work. Not only that I didn’t want to but I felt like I physically couldn’t leave. It was awful and I will never forget that feeling.

After about about week I went to see my dr. He didn’t seem surprised that I was experiencing anxiety. He said he was accustomed to seeing people my age go through this and it was a stressful time in life. He gave me some medicine with instruction to take it easy and kinda chill out. I was resistant to the medicine because I didn’t want to have to take something to feel normal. The more I thought about it though I came around to the idea. If it was gonna make me feel better and give me my life back I was completely for it. After I started taking the medicine it still took a little time to feel back to normal. I took it day by day and eventually I was feeling better.

That wasn’t my last episode with anxiety and over the years I have dealt with it several times. Now that I am more informed about anxiety and have dealt with it a bit more I have found that I really have to talk to myself. I always tell myself I am not in any immediate danger and I try and force myself to put a finger on the thought or stream of thoughts that is upsetting me. This has really seemed to help and has let me take strides forward. This may be something that I have to deal with for the rest of my life but I now have the tools to do that much better. I realize I don’t have to figure out every aspect of my life today. I can only change what is happening today and how I deal with today is what will affect tomorrow.

 

Take It All In Stride

7 Oct

My 20’s are officially over today. I remember when I was about 21 and I thought 30 sounded old. It seemed like it was so far off in the future and that I had plenty of time until I passed that milestone. I feel like I blinked my eyes and the past 10 years passed in a flash.

It seems for the past 6 months someone would remind me daily that I was going to be 30 any day now. It’s almost like 29 wasn’t acknowledged. I feel like I am handling it ok. When I really sit and think about the time that has passed and all that has happened it gives me a little anxiety. But, for the most part I have decided what good is it gonna do to get upset about it? I can either embrace it or roll over and die and the second one doesn’t sound appealing at all. My mom reminded me today that I would always tell my grandmother on her birthday that age is just a number. And that is the truth. I am a little wiser this year than last (only slightly though), I have created more memories and met goals I had set for myself.

I hope these next 10 years slow down a bit for me but I have a feeling they only go by faster from here on. I think it is always important to set goals for yourself and have something to aspire to. I don’t want to become stagnant in life and just settle for where I am. My goal for this year is simply to live better and be better. I want to think about those around me more, be more considerate in the things I say and make everyday have a purpose. I am sure those seem like cliches but it is truly what I want for my life.

Looking forward to what the year holds.