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Take Life One Day At A Time

16 Oct

I have always been a pretty laid back person but I have my share of worries that I let get the best of me. Right after I graduated college I had been job hunting and trying to find a direction for my life. I had gotten my degree, now what? For a little while I wasn’tΒ  motivated to really get up and find a job in my field. I was satisfied just bar-tending and waiting tables. There was nothing wrong with that but I knew I didn’t want to do that forever.

This was about the time the anxiety set in. It took over my whole body, my whole being and I had no idea what was happening. It came out of nowhere and made me feel terrified. I tried to explain to my friends and family why I was so upset but I couldn’t really put a finger on it. I know I was over-thinking everything and trying to figure out the path my life was gonna take all at one time. It got bad enough where I didn’t want to leave the house or go to work. Not only that I didn’t want to but I felt like I physically couldn’t leave. It was awful and I will never forget that feeling.

After about about week I went to see my dr. He didn’t seem surprised that I was experiencing anxiety. He said he was accustomed to seeing people my age go through this and it was a stressful time in life. He gave me some medicine with instruction to take it easy and kinda chill out. I was resistant to the medicine because I didn’t want to have to take something to feel normal. The more I thought about it though I came around to the idea. If it was gonna make me feel better and give me my life back I was completely for it. After I started taking the medicine it still took a little time to feel back to normal. I took it day by day and eventually I was feeling better.

That wasn’t my last episode with anxiety and over the years I have dealt with it several times. Now that I am more informed about anxiety and have dealt with it a bit more I have found that I really have to talk to myself. I always tell myself I am not in any immediate danger and I try and force myself to put a finger on the thought or stream of thoughts that is upsetting me. This has really seemed to help and has let me take strides forward. This may be something that I have to deal with for the rest of my life but I now have the tools to do that much better. I realize I don’t have to figure out every aspect of my life today. I can only change what is happening today and how I deal with today is what will affect tomorrow.

 

Semi-Vacation

2 Jul

A little over a week ago I took a bit of vacation with my mom, dad and Lila (Josh had to work.) I call it a semi-vacation because there were dr.’s appointments involved and you can’t really count that as vacation. Our destination was the Cleveland Clinic in Cleveland, Ohio. I had an appointment there with a specialist about the vertigo I have been experiencing for about 4 years now. My dad also had an appointment with his back surgeon to follow-up and get cleared. I wasn’t holding my breath for any big cure because over the last four years I have seen numerous doctors and had a battery of test done multiple times. Overall, I was really pleased with their diagnosis. They agreed with previous dr.’s that I have migraine associated vertigo. However, they took more time with me in explaining why they thought that was the case and what the possible solution was. Basically over the past four years I have been dizzy constantly. Not dizzy like I am gonna fall over but dizzy like I just got off a boat and it NEVER stops. The only time it did stop is when I was pregnant. They said a lot of times migraines can either get a lot worse or a lot better during pregnancy and that is why they believe it is that type of vertigo. I have started a new medication in hopes that it can help. It takes 6 weeks to get to the top tier of the dosage so it will be a while before I really know if it is helping. I am so thankful for the people in medicine and just hope I don’t have to walk around dizzy the rest of my life. However, while we were there I saw people in much worse shape than I am in and it made me so thankful for each day I can get out of bed. I am grateful so many people dedicate their life to medicine and healing those that are sick. You don’t know how much you appreciate those people until you need them.

Onto the vacation part of the trip. My brother and I were born in Oxford, Ohio which is right outside of Cincinnati so we decided to stop by for a few days on our way home. My mom and dad lived there for 8 eight years and it was fun to listen to all the stories they had to tell. We got to go by and see the first house I first lived in. The town is a college town and the house is part of student housing now so all the houses are named. Ours is called, “Rhythm and Brews.”

The town has the cutest little town square and we let Lila run around. She had a girls gone wild moment.

This is the hospital where I was born.

She loves her G-Mama.

It was a quick little trip but I am really glad we got to go. Lila was a trooper. She did really well in the car but she was ready to be done by the end. Her face says it all.