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Do What You Enjoy

19 Oct

I don’t really talk a lot about my job but I love what I do. I have been a graphic designer for Regal Entertainment Group for about 5 and half years. Somehow, I always knew I wanted to do graphic design and I was lucky enough to follow my dream. I never took any art classes in high school so college was really my first introduction to art. I was very intimidated when I first started because I was surrounded by people who had been painting and drawing their whole lives. I felt completely out of my element. Luckily though I made some friendships in my first year that really helped to get me through. Art classes require so many hours of your time more than just the scheduled class hours. I remember thinking I could knock out a project in an hour and it would be no big deal but in reality those project would end up taking about 3 or 4 hours. Sometimes I would be on the verge of tears because I had dedicated so much time and effort and I felt like my work still wasn’t good enough in the end. Unlike math or history where there are solid facts and answers, art is very personal and subjective. I had to sit through lots of tough critiques listening to my work being torn apart.

One class I remember in particular was a painting class. I realize I am not a fine artist, that is definitely not where my talent lies. But, I tried really hard and put in the hours to just be sub-par. One of the projects I distinctly remember was having to do a self-portrait. I studied my face for hours on end trying to define my cheekbones and give my eyes just the right amount of curve. We were given several weeks to finish this project and by the end of it I was so happy with the outcome. I proudly took my canvas to the front of the class on critique day and hung it up anxiously awaiting feedback. When we finally got around to mine I was beaming with pride. Then someone made the first comment and it was like someone ripped a band-aid off. Nobody was really mean but they just said it didn’t look like me and had A LOT of constructive criticism. At that point I was so close to the painting that I took it entirely too personal. After the class was finished speaking about my painting I excused myself from the class and walked into the hallway. I broke down into tears. These weren’t little baby tears that I could discretely wipe away. It was a full out ugly girl cry, couldn’t catch my breath kind of cry. I couldn’t get control of myself. I had let everyone’s critiques really get to me. I thought the self-portrait looked just like me. Just a little FYI…. I looked at the painting a few years later and it wasn’t very good at all and hardly looked a thing like me.

Although that was a tough thing to go through I knew I still wanted my life to be in art. I stuck with the classes and finally made it through. I think it is safe to say my design work is much better than my fine art work and I am glad I stayed with it. Obviously there are things about my job that aren’t my exact dream but I don’t think any job is perfect. Sometimes I get down on myself and think that I’m not really making a difference because I’m not saving lives or anything. But, I guess I contribute in a different way by trying my best to make things beautiful.

Work is a huge part of our lives, it is time away from family and friends so I think it is important to make the most of that time if impossible.

 

Work It Mama

14 Mar

It doesn’t seem like there are enough hours in the day.

I work outside the home during the week so for the majority of the day I don’t get to see Lila. Once I pick her up after work we usually have a schedule of dinner, play, bath, a little more play, and bedtime. On most days Josh and I get to see her for about 2 hours after work. It just doesn’t seem like enough. I love my job and I enjoy getting to interact outside the home and be creative but a lot of the times I feel like life isn’t balanced.

A lot of times I feel guilty for being gone all day and missing precious moments.

It is hard to find the time to clean, work-out, cook and etc. If I want to work-out I usually have to do it during my lunch break at work. If I try and cook a nice dinner I feel like I am taking time away from Lila and if I wait til after she goes to bed we aren’t eating til 9 at night.

Many times I think to myself I wish I could stay home and I would get so much more done. Only in reality I know that is not the case. On the weekends when we are home with Lila all day there are still a million things to be done with things left on the list at the end of the day. Also, I learned when I was on maternity leave that staying home full-time is probably more challenging than any job outside the home. I think stay-at-home mamas are some of the hardest working people around.

I wish there was a happy medium where I didn’t have to work as much and I could stay home more but that isn’t realistic for our young family. We both have to work to keep things going. It just makes me realize that no matter which side of the fence you fall on things aren’t going to be perfect. There is no simple solution to getting everything done and being everything to everyone. Whether you work outside the home or stay-home, sacrifices have to made, schedules have to be tweaked, and there will never be enough hours in the day.

The important thing to remember is to make the most of the time you have.